The thought of new seems exciting and exhilarating. Many of us are just dying for “new” to come knocking at our door.
For so long, I yearned for “new.”
And, then “new” came.
New home. New neighborhood. New transitions. An entirely new season for my family and me.
The breakthrough flooded in the new, and the waves of awe, joy, and sincere thanks swept over me.
But, then I realized new doesn’t necessarily mean easy. And, stepping into the new all of a sudden seemed overwhelmingly frightening.
And, then the old began to creep up inside of me.
Old is safe. But, old can also be crippling.
Old is a bit deceptive. With its familiarity, old appears to be oh so comforting, and secure.
Who ever wants to dwell in old ways? And, yet, I reluctantly raise my hand, and whisper, “I do.”
But, you see, something I have quickly come to learn about new—you cannot fully experience it unless you do away with the old.
In 2016, I felt God gave me Isaiah 43:19 as my verse for the year – “See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
After praying and searching for a place of our own for almost four years, I desperately awaited a new thing.
What I failed to notice was what God says in the verse right before this passage – “Forget the former things…” (Isaiah 43:18).
We all long for the new, but are we willing and ready to forget the old?
Coming into this New Year, 2017, I felt God resound that word “new” once again. “He who was seated on the throne said, ‘I am making everything new!’” (Revelation 21:5).
Since moving into our new home about six weeks ago, God has brought me face to face with my old tendencies that have no place in the new season He has brought us to.
I had no clue that purchasing a fixer upper would mean something much deeper than just externally taking part in renovations and updates. For me, it has also meant allowing God to remodel me.
You see, in this new season, fear no longer has any place.
Logic has to bow down to faith.
Insecurities have to give way to God-confidence.
Loneliness is unveiled as an opportunity to cultivate a God-friendship.
And, areas I have labeled as weaknesses are being turned into gateways for God’s strength to shine through.
Has this fixer upper process been easy?
The excavating of these deep places has been one of the hardest seasons I have yet to encounter.
At times, it’s much more easier to succumb to the old and raise the white flag in defeat.
But, then I’m reminded that God cannot pour new wine into old wineskins. Everything must be made new in order for me to fully receive all that God desires for me.
And so, I push onward. With legs shaking, I step out with the little faith I have—little faith, but faith nonetheless—because God is a master at using “little.”
I move forward despite not feeling all together. Despite feeling like a mess. The mess is giving way to miracle-formation.
The full verse from Revelation states, “He who was seated on the throne said, ‘I am making everything new!’ Then he said, ‘Write this down…’” (21:5).
I have no clue what His purpose is, but I believe He has instructed me to “Write this down…”
If you are like me and you feel like a holy digging is happening, I encourage you to stick it through. God is doing a new thing! And that new thing is mainly you!
He is perfecting the miracle of you.
You may not have it all together, but don’t label yourself defeated.
Surrender instead to the grace of God to flood every weak place.
He is doing a new thing and He does all things well!